When a relationship ends for whatever reason, most people have a feeling of emptiness inside, that they're lost. At the moment I'm at that point and I'm wondering when it's going to end.
I was in a relationship for just over 6 years with a girl I knew from school. When we got together she was 15 and I was 17. By the time I was twenty we were living together, admittidley not in the nicest area, but together. Over the next few years I worked hard and had to push her harder. Two years later we'd managed to move into Saltaire, which is a tourist area which loads of people want to live.
It was all going well, we thought we'd be together forever...........then we booked our wedding! ha! What a mistake that was! Everything went wrong very quickly and within 3 months we were history.
It's now 5 months later. I don't miss her but I miss the company. I started hanging out with another girl, whom my ex was good mates with, shortly after. She has a small kid whose awesome and a fella whose a total w*nker! The problem is we are "friends" and that's all we were meant to be. The thing is we spend more time together than she does with her fella. I don't know wether it's the amount of time we're together or my genuine feelings, but I think I have fallen for her. Sorry, I know I have.
So now all I can think "Is this really starting again?" "Where can I go with this?"
At the moment she is on holiday in Malta with her family (not including the fella, he's not welcome by her family) and I am genuinly missing her..... but I think it's time to do something, change something. Maybe move to another city, go travelling, turn gay! Anything to mix it up.
Any suggestions would be appreciated.
Thanks
Depressed-Twentysomething